What am I doing?

I have written so much.

I have cried so many tears.

A better me, feels unable to touch.

But now, I want to focus on progress instead of fears.

Can you imagine the frustration of mood swings?

Feeling bad, like: 'What am I waiting for?'

I want to get rid of these depressive feelings.

Because I hate this prison, I don't want it anymore!

What am I doing? Just trying to stand.

I am so done with the life that I'm living.

Not doing anything, so why am I expecting?

To live a different life, that this will simply come to an end?

So what can I change to take steps in the right direction?

What can I do to live my life happily?

That my friends experience the joy of this new detection.

And after all, meet a new me.

I will become that woman and I may struggle for a while.

This depression is strong, but I have had enough!

Wait until you can see me really smile.

And watch me live the life that I'm dreaming of.